There is someone else in my kitchen cooking me dinner.
The kitchen is my holy place. I know where things are. I know how everything works. All the quirks and tricks of each knife and appliance. Having someone else in the kitchen wouldn’t bother me if I hadn’t been kicked out and told to go do something else and wait for dinner.
But, but, you’re in MY kitchen!!
I suppose the larger point here is that I am allowing another person in. In my kitchen, my home, my life. She wants to cook me a birthday dinner and I let her. It has been a long time since I’ve let someone into my life – allowed them to see and experience the real me. But she’s being gentle and understanding. And slowly but surely I am opening up and exposing more of my life to her.
It’s scary, but I’m remembering how nice it can be to have someone else around to care for and fuss over you. She is welcome in my kitchen for now – we’ll see how well she cleans up to determine if she’s welcomed back!
10 October 2010 at 9:10 pm
It’s stressful to give up that control sometimes. But if you can get a good birthday meal out of it, isn’t that a win? Plus – opening up to someone can be a good thing.
11 October 2010 at 11:35 am
Aw, I love this.
It definitely IS scary. But it’s the kind of scary that feels so good, especially when the person is so great.
I’m so happy for you, and happy late birthday!
11 October 2010 at 2:46 pm
G – Opening up can be very good, but it’s definitely hard to do. However, knowing that you are strong enough to keep going if things don’t go well is pretty good too.
Kaitlin – That scariness does feel unordinarily good. I’m getting used to the feeling, and I’d like to keep it around for awhile. Thanks for the Bday wishes!
18 October 2010 at 1:54 am
I will not be jealous.
I will not be jealous.
I will not be jealous.
…I’m kind of jealous.
21 December 2010 at 8:47 pm
(Rather late to this post) but despite how hard the ‘giving up control’ issue is – it’s oh so worth the results. Dinner and otherwise
fimg xx
14 January 2011 at 9:45 am
Giving up control is one of the most difficult things for me to do. But I certainly appreciate someone who’s strong enough to challenge me to do so. Part of it is that I’m just too darn stubborn for my own good, but someone who won’t back down when I push back is definitely a keeper. Or at least someone to learn a thing or two from!